A New Year

So, it's a New Year which means a fresh start. But why then do I not feel so great about this New Year, could it be because of how last year turned out? To be honest, 2008 was a roller coaster. On one hand I gained many friends, and kept the amazing ones. On the other I lost more than I would have liked. I had a lot of let downs, but then pulled through in places i did not expect. I think the biggest reason I feel so dreary is because it's a New Year, which means another year has passed, which also means another year of my life has drifted away. It means that I have to start my own path in life, one that does not have any particular direction yet. The only sure thing in my life is going on a mission, beyond that then what? What on earth am I, Christopher Taylor, going to do with myself, with my life. Am i gonna finally stick with Music, or get distracted with another Major. Lately I have the desire to go into comedy and acting. My mind and ambitions are all over the place and I have no idea what to do. But I do know one thing and that is I can't waste what short time I have here on this Earth, and I want to take every opportunity I can. I want to be adventurous, go anywhere I want without a moments notice, do anything, and be who I want to be. The biggest problem is I don't really know who I am. I know I'm a son of god, and I know that it is the greatest thing I can be. But when I say I don't know who I am I mean something entirely different. Before, I thought I was a tuba player and that is what I was gonna do until I died, but now I'm in choir. I think that 2009 is gonna be the year that i discover who I am and what my ambitions are. And I know that if I just stay positive everything will work out. Because "once you choose hope, anything is possible"-Christopher Reeve